i really hate it when people say you shouldn’t use the computer or watch tv before going to bed and instead you should read a book because you need winding down time or you won’t sleep. ha ha good one do you know what happens if i start a book before bed?! i end up fucking finishing it that’s what
yo if eating pizza and playing mario party and having sex on the couch doesn’t sound like the perfect date to you then get the fuck out of my face.
There is absolutely nothing I want to do with my life. No college that was made perfectly for me. I hate my job and I can’t stand living at home and I don’t understand how I became this person. Last summer, I really really thought I was near death, not on my own accord of course. I guess no one else really thought that, but I did. And since last summer, the worst summer of my life. Actually scratch that, it really could’ve been before that too, I realized, I have no idea what my purpose is, or if there’s something wrong with me. It’s not like I’m suicidal, or even remotely close to that, its just that I feel like I should be happier about the things in my life and I’m not. I miss my father every single day. My mom and I fight on a daily basis. I am falling in love with my boyfriend and every night I go to sleep thinking, “well he’s probably going to leave you” and I don’t know how I came to this. I don’t want to cry or be sad over things that I can’t change, but I really can’t hold back anymore. I can’t sleep, I overthink everything, and I try so hard to be happy but it turns around and screws me. I don’t know what to do anymore.
